For there is honor in a good death especially the daily death of everyday living.
You have to be courageous and bold enough to have nothing over and over again...So when you have something you’ll know how to listen and appreciate it over and over again until it is time to let it go.
For who are you to know what it is you truly want? Some wants disappear some wants are marked in your soul forever and some wants were just not meant to be.
But like a cloudy apparition it just wasn’t meant to be. You are blind and I am free.
I am loyal to you within the confines of our contract I just won’t love only you because you could not possibly only love and understand all of me—and I know that.
Maybe I’m still that little girl. Hiding underneath that small wooden table. Taking everything too seriously, even then.
I learned to hide my pain in her, because all the negativity, all the horrible emotions I felt. I knew people couldn’t be trusted. I knew people did not want to see me, or my pain. So I used her. I buried it all in her. I locked it in. Which is why when she comes out to play, she does not care who she hurts, she only wants to win.