All (For) You

Luckily I dodged a bullet because your false sense of security hidden in your “monogamy” wasn’t really what I wanted in the first place.

 I found myself
angry
at those
who claim
to want monogamy
when they seek to play
everyone
at the same time.
 
If you want to be open
just tell me.
Because I am open
if you let me be.
 
But you wanted to be seduced
by my singularity
by my flattery.
I knew this about you.
I made a choice then.
And I chose this temporarily
And we agreed on an outcome
where I seduced myself and you too.
Holding my true self back
that I didn’t know yet existed
just for you.
 
So when you played me
I had already
played us both
with a fantasy
of who we both were.
 
I was unprepared
and therefore
much more angered
at insignificant betrayals
than I needed to be.
You told me
what you wanted
and it wasn’t really
what was happening.
 
Luckily
I dodged a bullet
because your false sense of security
hidden in your “monogamy”
wasn’t really what I wanted
in the first place.